why did i drown myself in liquor last night?.... maraming reason e.. kaya eto iisa-isahin ko.....

first is... im feel so terribly lonely.. wla akong kausap dun dahil lahat ng tao dun ay on PAIRS kya im left there, sitting along with people na di naman tlga ako dinadaldal.... Also, seeing too many couples triggered my loneliness and i began hating myself for that.

2nd reason is, para masulit ko ang pagpunta ko dun.... and to keep my pride na i can manage myself alone, i dont need anyones help to keep myself entertained in such social situation.... But really... i really felt so lonely that night... I really wished i was with someone..... but but...... wla e..... no one loves me :p

3rd is.. well para makisama na rin.

haay grabe... nhihilo parin ako hangang ngayun kht nakatulog n ko.... I wont forget this day... dahil na ihi ako sa pantalon ko! ahahaha

2 bloody wounds